Truth

Parking Lot

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At 7:55 in the evening, while I am trying to calm my veins as they chill from the work space where I came from I am writing in the parking lot with absolute silence inside a car. All I can hear is the palpitation of my heart and the sound of the keys as I type.

I am panting as if I have a limited time to get everything off my chest. These excruciating thoughts of being in the place where I should have been instead of being parked in the middle of this silence. In this silence… yet my thoughts are unruly.  I am gasping for air to breathe.

Oh how I wish I could just leave all the mess the moment I leave this parking lot. If only I could park the negative thoughts and emotions within, right here at bay 3E and just move forward like I heard nothing, like nothing happened, like I never lost a battle, but truth hurts. It hurts more than anything. Yet it is actually freeing.

Can the world really be a better place if everyone were honest? Would it really make a difference? Maybe or maybe not. I tried to be one but I ended up being in a hollow, meddling with the wound of that one word that I now thought as the end of my trying-to-be-honest-at-all-times

I would keep quiet. I won’t say a word. I was caught off guard by that one word. That word that could have been the truth that I cannot just accept. I felt helpless. I thought I fainted to death.

Yet that truth will still hold true, I will come out strong from this struggle. I know that for sure. Avenge your child, Lord.

Avenge me from my own destructive self.
Avenge me from the real enemy.

Just Yes or No

Most of our questions in life are answerable by YES or NO and that I say is just plain and simple. Many of us do not want to be in a “IT’S COMPLICATED” state and yet sometimes we choose to complicate our lives, decisions, emotions, and that eventually leads to complicated actions.

People tend to play-it-safe when being asked with easy-to-difficult questions. They’d like to prove their answers with endless explanations, reasoning, and most of the time, excuses. I woke up today with fluid and crystal clear thoughts about being sure with what you stand for, about being direct-to-the-point, about being honest, and about being bold to answer questions that are answerable by simply YES or NO. I strongly believe that life is simple and beautiful and nothing in life can be too complicated… unless we start allowing them to be so.

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YES or NO. Think about it. Pick your choice. Stand by it. Do you think that’s possible? I believe so. Now I’ll try to put up three questions answerable by yes or no but with progression. Let’s see.

The easy part. (Basic Information)

1.1. Did you have your breakfast already? No.

1.2. Do you go to church every week? Yes.

1.3. Are you working? Yes.

I say this is pretty basic because these questions are mostly in general and in a daily routine of individuals and can be answered even without further explanations. Simple and plain.

Next would be a little bit harder but can still be uncomplicated, if the person being asked would likely keep thoughts to himself/herself. These are the questions when we feel explaining ourselves a little bit further.

2.1. Did you enjoy eating your breakfast the other day at the X-Cafe? Uhmm, yes, I think so. (at the back of his mind: …but I think I didn’t eat enough. I liked the food but it would have been great if I also tried their strong black coffee as well.)

2.2. Are you happy whenever you go to your church every week? Yes! (with all excitement) We have a real great praise and worship team, the people there are cool and friendly. I love everything and everyone there. (thoughts here were expressed vocally)

2.3. Do you love your work and everything you do in your job? Yes! Of course! This is where I get to earn income and I don’t see myself not earning this much but I’d also love to consider going abroad so I can practice what I really love to do and what  I am passionate about. I love my job, yes but I wish I could be more than just a regular employee (now a little bit on top of just everything. don’t you think?)

I believe people are very intelligent in many ways. We can’t help it. We, most of the time feel the urge to say something more, to elaborate more than what we were asked about. That’s reality and has been a norm.

The third set of questions can be more intriguing and really challenging to the other person being asked but then, still answerable by just yes or no.

3.1. I saw you the other day having breakfast with someone at the X-Cafe. Is that your ex-girlfriend? NO! (even if the scenario can be true) I will never see my ex-girlfriend anymore. I love my wife and my children and I will never do that to them. What makes you think I can cheat on my wife? Don’t you dare judge me! You don’t even know everything about me. (Defensive to the fullest. Is the question still simple? I know so.)

3.2. I feel that the church you are attending is really a great place huh, I bet you never had any issue with your relationships with others. Is that true? (Now a beautiful smile can turn into a frown or…) Hmm, Yes! I’m a very good person. I never hate any say something bad about other people. I am very religious and people love having me around. I have many friends. (Can this be real? Can’t we be just more honest with ourselves?)

3.3. Are you always faithful with your schedule at work? No. (Now that’s honesty!)but I have better reasons why I sometimes get late. I value my time, really.  I love my work. I may have been unfaithful in keeping with my schedule but I’m one of the best employees. I take care of a lot of things and I complete my tasks everyday even if I got in late. I am not a bad employee. I love my job! (now that’s a full blast of explanation!)

See the difference? I can put up a lot of harder to hardest questions answerable by just yes or no but I’d rather have you observe this on your own. Again, I say, life is simple an beautiful. Do not complicate it. Enjoy living every moment of your life.